So this week I'm making my Hoopnotica Instructer training video, and after seeing myself in a test of said video, I nearly cried. I'm not thrilled with my body, but on most days I take it in stride. I work out and eat better and have lost some pounds since beginning hooping. Still, nothing could have prepared me for that video. It was at the point where I honestly felt like my respect for Husband had decreased, because he married me (and I was like 15 pounds heavier then!). But I got over it and headed out to buy some Spanx. Yes, that dreaded undergarment. I haven't worn anything similar since my wedding day, and wow, WOW. This was awful. The only way I can describe it is it's as if it was created by Satan himself. Forget the physical pain of it, the emotional toll of seeing myself going to this ridiculous length to look better made me feel worse. Learning how to hoop isn't purely a physical thing, it's a mental thing, enlightening, and sometimes even spiritual. That's what I'm supposed to teach! And here I am falling into a silly trap. I feel like I've taken 2 steps backward because of those stupid Spanx.
Ladies, throw the girdles away. I can't imagine it being worth it. Any tips on how to gain back my self esteem?